While recalling my old memories for writing down the Diary of a Green man, one phase of my life came to my mind. This phase has such a profound effect on my personality and life journey that I feel I should share it with you all. The last post I shared was about my aspirations to do modelling. The phase of my ultimate Transformation was a long period of two-and-a-half years perseverance and patience, in that period I have seen the lowest and somewhat the toughest time of my life. However, the transformation that I have undergone during this period has played the biggest role in changing my Attitude, Aptitude and my Overall Personality. It lead to drastic changes in everything from my external physique to my internal thinking.

During those two-and-a-half years, my endurance and patience were most tested. In other words, it is because of this situation that I understood the most important principle of life that “You will never become who you could be, until you become angry with what you are – – You will never CHANGE what you TOLERATE ! Discontent is the SEED of Change! Nothing in Life is Worthwhile unless you take Risks!

If you do not like a certain situation in life, then don’t adjust with it but rather rebel against it using all your Strength and Passion.

The phase I’m talking about happened in my 11th Std, when I had chosen science stream. Like I said before, at one time sports was everything to me. But it wasn’t long before I realized that my passion for sports and science could not be managed together. Because gradually most of my time was spent in studying, which hardly gave me time for playing sports. That’s why within four months of taking admission, I decided that I wanted to shift to Commerce!

When I decided that I wanted to quit science and take up commerce, my parents fully supported my decision, so I didn’t have to struggle mentally on that front, but it was a matter of admission. Since the first term had already ended, under such circumstances, I could not get immediate admission in a good school. And it so happened that I got admission in another school, which was like a nightmare for a student like me who studied in the most prestigious St. Xavier’s school. I almost never had friends in that school, because being from Xavier’s, people would look at me differently. I tried my best to communicate and fit in their system.

Is the decision to leave the science stream right or wrong? There were many doubts in my mind at that time my future depended on it. Because even after going into commerce, I was still unsure. As the first term of commerce had already ended, I had to catch up fast with the course. In the beginning, it also happened that my balance sheet never tallied because I made so many silly mistakes.

At the tender age of sixteen or seventeen, there is a lot of confusion and apprehension about choosing the right stream as your entire career and life depends on the same. On top of it when suddenly you go to a new school, you have to face a completely different environment. Many times a teenager becomes frustrated and his inexperienced mind in order to escape the situation, may resort to habits that are completely useless and can prove fatal to him later on.

I was also a victim of such frustration at the time and I was getting very suffocated due to the change of school which I was not familiar with or used to. I was even subjected to mockery and other people’s opinions sting me like a snake’s venom. Dude, you dropped out of science for sports? How could you be so foolish about it?

Fortunately at that time, I was blessed because I got support from my mom and dad and I somehow survived. But today I realize that such a stage in the life of any teenager is temporary and extremely short-lived. At such times it becomes the primary duty of every parent to stand by the child and motivate him by instilling patience and faith in him.

This experience also made it clear to me that no matter what the situation in life is or what others say for you, but if you have a positive voice inside you or you are one hundred percent convinced about your goals, you can survive in any situation. You can show your productivity even in difficult times. Speaking of myself, it was during this time that my passion for modelling was awakened and as I said earlier, I transformed myself the most for modelling. So despite being an English medium student, I accepted a job as a PSO in a pager company. Why? The only reason is that through that I could develop my communication skills even better!

If I remember those years now, despite all the challenges I still kept my passion and my dreams burning within me. Today I realise that no matter how suffocating the situation is, we should not compromise with our dreams. Rather, start working in the right direction to get out of that situation, so that the situation does not become permanent for us!

Even then, perhaps I was committed to work with intensity to get what I loved or what I longed for. It is this strong faith which helps us to emerge beautifully and shine more brighter after those temporary obstacles are removed!

Moreover, even then I had the positive attitude firmly in me to not get affected by what others think of me or what they assume of me!. Because others always give their opinion based on their own experience and understanding. At such a time, what should we do with our beliefs and our dreams? Is it our job to pierce our own dreams and destroy them with the thorns given to us by someone?

From this experience in student life, my belief is also strengthened that when you are at the lowest level in life and all the situations are against you, in a way that time has the potential to be the best transformational time of life for you. Because at that time only strong faith and unwavering mindset gives you a chance to perform at your best. It is during this time that the best of what is inside you shines. But yes, it requires patience and faith. Escaping the situation does not work at such a time!

There was a spirit of eagerness, a thirst for achieving, in my teenage years. I am lucky to have the same zeal and passion today. The fire in my belly did not die.

When you march ahead in life with full faith and confidence, you experience the good the bad and the solutions to deal with challenges. You feel satisfied. With time I have learned that every experience is a form of exploration.

Since our strategies against the temporary problem must also be temporary, what should we do with permanent decisions during those problems? Because taking permanent decisions in a hurry for fear of problems means that we are also compromising with our dreams. And if dreams are intertwined, it means that man lives a life according to the expectations of others, not his own.

But is it right to live according to the assumptions of others?